Thursday, July 2, 2015

My Video: Pictures of 13-Week Baby Isaiah

I just made a memorial video and posted it to YouTube. I was recently inspired by Kari-Lynn Darrow, a very sweet person who makes videos about her regret for her abortion, to make a video too. I just want to share Isaiah with the world. I chose him for this video because he's the younger one. We are
taught that the younger a baby is, the less of a baby he or she is. I was almost five months when we lost Micah, and he received a lot of recognition. Our family and community greatly supported us when we lost Isaiah too, but I always felt that he was the less recognized one. At first I even thought that I myself would recognize this baby less. I was wrong, for in the end I grieved Isaiah harder than I grieved Micah. Each baby is very different. Each loss was different. Micah got lots of sympathy cards among many other things. Among many other things, Isaiah gets this video.

As an Orthodox Christian, I can stare at death in the face with no fear because "Christ has risen from the dead, trampling down death by death, and upon those in the tombs bestowing life." Some people may think the photos are "gross." Well we will happily watch extremely violent shows, but photos of human life are "gross?" Human life is beautiful. Babies are beautiful. I was glad that I looked at my baby, held my baby, kissed my baby, sang to my baby, and grieved for my baby. We need to know that we have permission to grieve our babies.  


18 comments:

  1. Beautiful video. May Isaiah's memory be eternal!

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  2. This is SO beautiful! I will share this:) love it, love Isaiah and love you.

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    1. Thanks Nora. I'm glad you liked it, and thanks for sharing it! love you too!

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  3. I often wonder what my babies at 13 and 10 weeks may have looked like. Today my babies would be 30 and 27 years of age. I may not have them here on earth with me, but I know I'll meet them someday in Heaven, as right now they live with Jesus.
    Thank you.

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    1. Hi Tammy, I'm sorry for the loss of your precious babies. Yes, they are with Jesus and I have hope that we will meet them one day. ❤️

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  4. Hello my dear, I naver heard that kind of sorry till today. I’m really sorry for your loss.I have no idea that can be happened that you can see your babies @ that early pregnancy. I lost about 8 babies like that most of them in about 9 to 12 weeks of pregnancies some miscarriages were accrued @ home some went to D&Cs but naver even thinking that I can able to see them Until today.


    I’m accepting again but this time my pregnancy is totally different I wasn’t even know until I was 8 week pregnant that I’m accepting. Coz I’m having 2 weeks of periods so I’m thinking that I’m non pragnant coz I wasn’t prepared I had blood transfusions 3 months before. But anyhow long story short I had 2 days ago clouding and thought that it’s going to be miscarriage agin but rush to the hospital they did the ultrasound and find out baby is fine heart beat is sounds like good which was 170 and my blood count was 134. So next day went again to do heart beat checked up it was 160 she is it’s ok. Today I had blood in my vomit and I still have spotting since Sunday went to hospital they checked again blood count went 134 to 111 heart beat went to 170 to 150 but they keep sending me home by saying everything is fine but after having 8 miscarriages back to back I’m very much concerned. Please need your advice I’m 12 weeks and 2 days now .

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    1. Well, I do not have a medical background, but according to what I've read, I think it is normal for the heart rate to decrease as the pregnancy progresses. Also, I think 120-160 is normal range for 12 weeks. I can imagine that after 8 miscarriages, you would be very concerned. Hugs to you. Sometimes all you can do is pray and hope for the best, and tell your doctor/s your concerns-- repeatedly if necessary. I do know that for recurrent miscarriages, some doctors will recommend extra folate, and maybe even low-dose aspirin (81 mg) (to help thin the blood). You could ask your doctor about that. Extra folate (at least 800 mcg per day) is standard, and you wouldn't need a doctor's advice for that. For my successful pregnancy I took 2,000 mcg of methyl-folate plus 2,000 mcg of folic acid, 2000 mg fish oil (to help thin the blood a little), 81mg low-dose aspirin, and a multi-vitamin. (I'm not trying to give medical advice-- just trying to provide information from one mom to another). But I did the same thing with a subsequent pregnancy, and unfortunately that pregnancy ended in an early loss-- sometimes we do everything we can, but there's no explanation the loss. If you haven't been tested for blood clotting disorders, that could also be something to ask about. I'm sorry for all your losses. Hugs, and I hope you have a healthy pregnancy. ❤️

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  5. These are so beautiful pictures. Stay strong

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  6. Such a beautiful baby I share it on my YouTube channel

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  7. so beautiful storey

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  8. Feeling sad for Ur loss😭😭.. Ur great mom..Ur baby will be with God as his favourite child....

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  9. You are really amazing mom dear.. lots of love.. god bless you..

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  10. You will see your beautiful baby again you know that with your faith it will keep you strong dont let go of it your son is as beautiful as his mother is.I will keep you in my prayers Gods Speed

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  11. Lovely vedio and beautiful pictures

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  12. Really loved the video and loved the baby also sis i m from Pakistan and i want to talk to u personally please its really imp for me plz can u give u Facebook id or an other soical Media account really i want to talk to u on a serious matter plz when ever u read this plz rep me i m w8ing for it and plz give me any id i no i will be thankful to you forever ❤️❣️❣️🙏🙏🙏🙏

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  13. Thanks to share ur 13 weeks beby boy picture with....i can understand ur feeling bcoz i had a miscarriage at 14 weeks pregnent but i havent seen my beby....ur video iais greatful to me nd many other women

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